It’s been quite awhile since i’ve been active on this blog of mine. I always struggle to stay focused on just one task at a time. I am trying to wrap my head around the idea of chunking my time in order to stay more focused + productive. Earlier this week, I told myself that I was going to spend hours & hours of my time to get my blog to have a good enough aesthetic to encourage me to actually want to post again. Rest assured, I am always thinking about my blog and what it could be or what i’d want it to be. Everything i’ve read about starting a blog talks about having a very focused niche and I could not help but think about what I could possibly focus on. However, recently I had an epiphany that there may be a theme in my writing that I was somehow unaware of.
Here’s the thing. I am a mess. I am well aware of this fact. I am also aware of my obsession with self-development. I have been reading self-development books since I was a freshmen in high school as if I were already having my mid-life crisis. Lets be real, I have read so many self-development books and it’s really hard to tell because I am VERY FAR from perfect and I do not always practice what I preach. Rest assured, that I do have knowledge about all types of subjects such as personal finances, happiness, productivity, love, relationships, parenting, building habits, spirituality, society, entrepreneurship, etc.
I have spent hours reading articles on psychologytoday.com and memoirs about other people’s fucked up lives. While, these stories have helped me develop an even stronger sense of empathy for others and I always do my best to treat everyone with respect regardless of their “status” in society. In fact, nothing irks me more than those that treat others that are less privileged as if they are the scum of the earth. The 45 year old cashier at your local grocery store deserves the same amount of respect as the CEO of a company that you admire. Why? Because we are all human. We all want to live a happy and fulfilling life. It is important to recognize that we are all dealt a different hand of cards and we are all trying our hardest to shuffle them in such a way that we believe is the most beneficial to ourselves and to society. What we do not know much about is what everyone is struggling with in their everyday lives. We could all be a little more kind to one another. So let me go ahead and let y’all know,
Everyday i’m strugglin’
What are my struggles?
- I move from city to city and do not keep myself grounded long enough to establish a good support system + friends. I have failed to involve myself in activities that allow me to meet other people depending strongly on my workplace to be my only source of making friends. Unfortunately, the downfall of working as a freelancer in experiential marketing is you do not consistently work with the same people and you do not necessarily love everyone that you do encounter more regularly.
- I have all of the knowledge about what keystone habits are necessary to produce a healthy + fulfilling lifestyle but I do not act on them the way that i should. I let the voices stay in my head and paralyze me therefore making my knowledge worthless because actions speak louder than words.
- I do not know where I want to settle down and I am letting it stress me the fuck out. I want a family and kids one day and the thought that I am twenty-five and I am not currently in the city where i want to establish this is well, LESS than IDEAL. I don’t want to act like I am a ticking time bomb but I also know that one day I am gonna wake up and I am not gonna know where all that damn time went.
- I am constantly consuming information and reading articles and text messages and scrolling through instagram and facebook and it’s all just a joke at this point. These are all tools and many of us are abusing them and instead of using them to improve our lives we are letting them control our lives. I am slowly learning to just turn everything off and focus on whatever it is that I am trying to accomplish.
The list goes on…
Andddddd it’s looking like this blog is going to become my little nook to discuss all things related to my own self-growth and fighting my inner demons. A place to share my flaws & with y’all. May we all continue to focus on progress not perfection.